2014
Early in the year Katie told me she wanteda divorce. It was devastating and I become ill for a time. I still went towork, but it was allconsuming. I would escape to the bathroom to try and dealwith the pain just enough to get back to my desk.
那年年初，Katie（Shane的妻子，Emerald的CV）告诉我她想离婚。这真是重磅打击，让我痛苦了一阵。我依然去上班，但离婚的事消耗了我的全部心力。我会跑去厕所里尝试着抚平苦楚，然后才返回工作台。
I still managed to do my work on RWBYVolume 2. It was one of the few things I could do that gave me a sense ofaccomplishment, and was something I could feel good about. Still, I'd be lyingif I said my productivity didn't take a major hit because of it. I did all Icould to work on my marriage even after being told nothing I did mattered. Ibegan going to counseling, and then marriage counseling. I really thoughtthings were looking hopeful. Still, I could only focus on one day at a time. Idid my best.
我还是完成了参与V2制作的工作。这是能让我有成就感，心情舒坦的少数几件事之一。当然，要说我的工作没有 被离婚的事沉重打击，那是唬人的。为了处理婚姻，我尝尽各种办法，即便被说是于事无补。我开始去找律师咨询，接着接受了婚姻调解服务。我真心认为状况充满希望。然而，每次工作我只能专注一天的时间。我尽力了。

Those Monty Moments
那独属于Monty的片段
Pretty much every single day I worked withhim we would get coffee and talk. They were always productive conversations. Wewere always figuring out new and more efficient ways to make cool thingshappen. There was so much value in our (his) workflow— the workflow that causedpeople on the same team to begin to dislike him and how much power he had. Buthis power was never about control. He used it to make beautiful things, and noone could replicate what he did. Because of this, no matter what kind ofchanges and attempts to standardize our workflow were made, he continued to dowhat he did best. And because of that we got those insanely awesome scenespeople watched the show to see. Those Monty moments. The parts that werememorable and meaningful way beyond just making things that look pretty, justto look pretty.
大多数场合，与他共事的每一天，我俩都会喝咖啡和聊天。我们总聊制作方面的话题，想出能让作品更酷的新鲜又有效之法。我俩（他）的工作流程颇有价值——以至于团队中的其他人开始讨厌他与他掌握的权力。然而，Monty的权力不是强制性、操控性的。有了权力，他才能做出美丽的东西，而他人无法复制。因此，不论有多少规范他工作过程的变更与尝试，他都能继续做到最好。正因为那样，节目的观众们才能看到那些狂拽酷炫吊的场景。那是独属于Monty的片段。那些值得纪念的、意义无穷的段落超越了美学，旨在美学。

It took a lot of work and was a lot offun, but we finally made it through Volume 2. No matter how difficult thingswere, it was no problem as long as Monty was there. No matter what anyone elsethought, we were a team. It was starting to become clear though that somepeople did not see it that way within the company’s walls. They tried to pullme away from Monty and referred to me as “an asset”. I had to fight to continueworking alongside Monty, the only reason I was there in the first place. Awhole month’s worth of time was wasted trying to get an official word, just sothey would stop trying to pull me over to RvB. Monty was aware of this too andhe would have public conversations with me on Twitter to show that we wereactually working on things.
费力工作很多，收获的快乐也很多，我们终于度过了V2的阶段。不论情况多艰难，只要Monty在就没问题。事情也开始变得明了了，尽管有一些人看不见公司墙内的部分。他们想法子把我从Monty身边拉开，视我为公司的“资产”。我只能为在Monty身边工作而战，那也是我留在那儿的唯一理由。我一个月的宝贵时间被荒废了，只因为他们想把我拉去做RVB。Monty也很清楚，他本来要在推上和我公开对话，以展示我们踏实地在工作。

2015
January
一月
A new year. I was sure it was going to besuch a great year. We were finally through two volumes of RWBY and had advancedour workflow significantly for Volume 3. Although I was not allowed to fullywork the way Monty worked anymore, I still considered his workflow our workflowno matter how much people might have tried to separate us. Since Volume 2 endedMonty and I had been working on developing some extremely helpful animationtools and effects.
新的一年到了。我坚信这会是伟大的一年。我们终于做完了两卷RWBY，改进了我们的工作程序。尽管我未受许用Monty的方式再工作，我依然把他的工作方式看做自己的工作流程，不论其他人有多想挑拨我俩。自从V2完结，Monty和我一直忙碌于开发一些极其有用的动画工具和特效。

New Tools
新的工具
After much discussion over coffee he cameup with an awesome tool for Poser he called the “Pivot Tool”, where we couldeasily animate the change of weapon parenting from its holster, from one handto the other, or both, etc. It would let us change between world and localrotation, and it had a bu iltin blur tool for weapon spinning. It was somethingwe had been hoping to make for years and it was finally ready to go. However,for Volume 3 they decided we weren’t allowed to use this awesome tool becauseit “breaks” the new pipeline they implemented.
在喝咖啡唠了很多后，他提出要为Poser定制一款很棒的工具，称之为“PivotTool”，用这个我们就能易如反掌的制作武器从收纳状态时、换手时、双手持用时等等场合变形的动画了。这工具能改变我们在宏观世界和局部间的切换方式，它还配有用于武器弧形旋转的内置模糊工具。它包含了我们几年来希望做的东西，终于蓄势待发了。然而，我们未被允许用这精致的工具做V3，因为它会打乱他们实行的流水线。

Monty also developed a facial rig to makeall the new animators happy. Everyone else on the team came from theprofessional industry where they are used to using Maya and standard face rigswith little objects off to the side representing the eyes, brows, mouth, etc.Monty’s tool simulated those facial rigs that Maya animators were used to usingbecause they kept complaining about how much easier it was to do in Maya.Unfortunately, no one got to use it because it was later decided not to beimportant enough, or something. So this tool went to waste.
Monty同样改善了面部绑定，让新动画师能称心如意的操作。团队里的其他动画师经受的是专门行业培训，他们习惯了用Maya软件，关掉小物件，依据代表眼睛、眉毛、嘴的模面来进行的标准面部绑定。Monty的工具模拟了Maya动画师们习惯的操作环境，因为他们总是抱怨用Maya做有多简单。不幸的是，这工具没人用，要么是因为之后的决策认为它不够重要，要么是其他的缘故。

A Good Place
良好的境地
There was a very fruitful yet short seasonof R&D with Monty. I had come up with new ways to create FX in Poser tomake them more comparable to what we saw and loved in anime and games (like theNaruto Ninja Storm series). Things were looking good, even my marriage seemed tobe getting better. Finally, everything looked like it was in such a good placethat I was convinced that Volume 3 would be the greatest and most fun to workon yet. Monty had even set up folders in his main project directory, all ofthem titled for the many fights that were supposed to take place. We were soexcited to make use of the new tools and methods we had just spent so much timedeveloping. Then suddenly…
经Monty之手，R&D推出了短小但成果丰硕的一季。我想出了在Poser里制造特效的新方法，让特效更能与我们在日本动画和游戏里看到的媲美（就像《火影忍者：忍者风暴》系列）。状况不错，我的婚姻状况似乎都好转了。最后，一切都让我觉得自己已至新境地，我深信V3将是我们所耕耘的最伟大、最有乐趣的作品。Monty甚至为主要工程目录建好了文件夹，所有文件夹以数场安排好的打斗命名。我们对能发挥新工具和方法的用场激动不已，它们耗费了我们许多时间去开发。然后，突然间……

January22
1.22
Around 5:00pm I received news that Sheenahad been trying to reach me for hours through every social media and chatplatform possible. Monty was in trouble. I dropped everything and rushed to thehospital as fast as I could.
大约5点，我收到消息，Sheena在过去的数小时内努力联系我，她为此用了各种可能的社交媒体和聊天平台。Monty陷入危难了。我把一切抛到九霄云外，最快速度冲到医院。
At the Hospital
在医院
When I got there she was in the waitingroom crying. We didn’t know what to expect. He had only gone in for amaintenance allergy shot— this sort of thing doesn’t happen. I spent as muchtime at the hospital as I could because I wanted to be there if anything came up.I did my best to stay strong and positive while facing an uncertain future.Over the course of the next week and a half there were many ups and downs.Someone would give us good news and then someone would give us bad news. Thishad happened about three times when finally the neurologist came in and told usthe extent of the damage… and that there was no coming back from it. At thatmoment all I can remember is the heartwrenching cry of the person who lovedhim most.
当我抵达的时候，Sheena在等候室哭着。我们不知道未来该如何面对。他不过是因为一记医护脱敏针住院了——这样的事没发生过。我在医院待了能多久就多久，因为我想在任何不测发生时在场。面临未知的未来，我用尽全力保持坚强和乐观心态。在接下来一个半星期的治疗中，有许多大起大落。有人带来了好消息，有人接踵而来带来坏消息。当神经科大夫进来告诉我们损伤情况时，这种循环发生了大概三次……然后就没有下文了。那一刻，我能追忆起的，只有那最爱他的人锥心刺骨的恸哭。
Monty was everything to Sheena. She gaveup everything to be with him. She did everything for him. She was the bestpartner that man could possibly have had and at this point only a miracle wouldbring him back. And that is exactly what we were praying for.
Monty是Sheena的一切。她为了和他在一起抛弃了所有。她为他做了一切。她恐怕是那个男人一生中最佳的伴侣了，那时，只有奇迹能挽回他。而我们正祈祷奇迹的降临。

Soft Lights
圣光
Dan Ham (Danjitsu) and Sonja Carter(SoulFirePhotography) came out as soon as they could and stayed right besideSheena the entire time. Personally, I felt safer knowing they were around, andthey were pretty much Monty and Sheena’s guardian angels. The “Montourage” crew(Jason Rose, Chloe (Sushimonstuh), Aku, Max Song, Kristina Haku, JohnnyJunkers, Max Song, Amie Lynn (sorry in advance if I missed someone) came out assoon as they could. They were such a gentle, bright light while we were in thisdark place. They stayed strong. They brought good memories and sweet laughterin the face of ugliness. Monty’s siblings came out. It was surreal to finallymeet them and see the resemblance. People from the office came and took turnssaying their last words to Monty.
Dan Ham(Danjitsu)和 Sonja Carter (SoulFirePhotography)立即出门，全程陪护在Sheena左右。个人感觉，知道他们守候在侧我感到安心许多，他们真是Monty和Sheena的守护天使。Montourage的制作班底，Jason Rose, Chloe (Sushimonstuh), Aku, MaxSong, Kristina Haku, Johnny Junkers, Max Song, Amie Lynn (如果我漏掉了谁，提前说声抱歉)也都尽可能出门。身在黑暗之地，他们是那一抹轻柔的、明亮的圣光，圣光一直强烈，面对丑恶他们带来了美好的走马灯和音容笑貌。Monty的兄弟姐妹也过来了。与他们会面，看到他们和Monty的相似之处，真是充满了荒诞感。人们从办公室跑出来，挨个儿地向Monty诉出最后的留言。
During this time I kept seeing people fromwork show up and consult amongst themselves about what to do. They even steppedin and tried to call the shots, “managing” who could come see
Monty and when. They claimed they werethere for Sheena. I heard so many people say to her,
“If you need anything, anything at all,just ask.”
在这段时光里，我看到人们撇下工作现身，彼此商量着能做些什么。然后他们踱了进去，努力作主，理清谁去探望Monty，何时去探望。他们称自己是为了Sheena守候着。我听见许多人对她说：“只要你一开口，不论需要什么我们都为你效劳。”
February 1
2.1
Monty Oum passed away.
Monty Oum逝世。

Previously, in Volume 2, they treatedMonty poorly with regards to him adding the scene with Raven after the credits.They tried very hard to cut it but obviously were not successful. I was eventold how stupid they thought his decision was. Because of that, it was nosurprise to me that they would not hesitate to make drastic changes— since hewas no longer around to tell the story he wanted.
之前，在V2阶段时，他们就因为Monty在片尾后加入Raven场景，对他嗤之以鼻。他们想方设法删掉这段场景，但明显没成功。有人甚至告诉我他们都觉得Monty的决断很傻。因此，我一点都不惊讶他们会做出近乎扭曲的改动——毕竟Monty不能再在周围讲述他想说的故事了。
（RT的某些人真分不清什么叫“傻”？Raven摘面具多美啊混蛋……同样有面具元素，你们给红牛捕捉的表情才叫真“傻”，还自以为很有兽性的酷炫？）

技术困难
我最终还是把打斗完成了，但是因为这一个新系统我必须巴拉巴拉的干一大堆复杂而繁琐的工作。这些全都是其他动画师的重复工作，但是mo一直极力避免这一过程这样他才能完成他那疯狂的工作。
虽然花了几天的功夫但是我最终还是搞定了，结果他们还是说有问题连100块都不给我。最后我发现这都是那个软件的锅，因为这个软件并没有完成我想执行的各种操作，然而poser在这方面就要好很多。在我发现这个问题前我都不知道问题在哪，所以最后我还得重做一遍。
这一遍我花费了更多的功夫，这真是一种极大的倒退，但是为了保证这些工作被完成我还是留了下来。
接下来又是帧数问题，在我的工作中我总是会额外留下几帧这样编辑就有retime的空间，但是他们告诉我他们为这几帧做渲染太麻烦了，但是这几帧确实是我们需要的。所以最后我还是得从来一遍。
最烦人的是这种事情本来都不是什么大问题，他们却搞得像世界末日一样，好像这些事情会把所有工作搞停滞了一样，但是我和mo这么干了这么多年了，对我们这些从来都不是什么问题。我倒不是说他们错了，但是他们搞的这一大堆让人头大的改变只是为了他们自己的工作方式考虑。

YB战adam
另一个我非常期待的打斗，B要和Adam决一死战，Y为了不让B死了接替了B的位置。在我完成了mercury对yang的打斗以后就去问该怎么处理这一段我期待已久的打斗
但是你猜怎么着？他们就没有把这一段写进去，因为在他们开始以前都没有看mo写的东西。这些在mo走以前他们都是可以看到的，mo走了以后我还保证了他们能看到，让他们拿到这些东西。更吃惊的是我在工作开始前就向制片人提出了monty的时间轴，他们却甚至没有看这个动漫的作者为自己的作品定下的计划。
除了养家糊口，我留在这的动力全都慢慢溶解了。
顺带一提YvsA是很nb的，mo曾用Linkin Park song做bgm，他们说以后他们会用上这些的。但是我知道他们最终会把它转换到maya上，我和mo的一切努力最终都会变成没有价值的垃圾。
每次发生这种事情以后我都尽量保持冷静，我不希望给他们任何彻底踢掉我的机会，我要尽可能保证这部作品还有一些monty的风格。
因为这一幕被完全砍掉了，我也没有什么可以做的了。

Ruby vs Roman
下一个就是ruby打Roman和Neo，我得知他们要在再飞机上这么搞的时候就囧了，这样mo设计的东西都讲不通了，当他们说最后neo飞了我都囧的不省人事了好么。
然后我就不想跟这种等于在mo作品上拉屎的东西扯上关系了。这违背了我留下的初衷，我想保护mo的东西。

Pyrrha vs cinder
最后我还剩下c vs p可以搞，我知道它本来应该是什么样子的，因为mo经常谈起这个，他们同意让我搞这个，即使这样我还是挣扎了好久，想想他们在这个战斗上做的改变我就心痛，很多东西没变，但是变的东西足够改变以前的情绪表达了。
Jaune本来应该见证p的死亡并成长的，大家本来应该看到p这个完美的战士是有机会打败c的，而现在看起来这却像笑话一样。但是依然我尽我最大的努力来填补空白让这一场打斗激动人心。
虽然我一直想滚蛋但我还是坚持留到最后，所以我一直工作，我本来计划活一干完就滚回家带孩子，但是我并没有以这种方式退场。
最后每一幕都很让人失望，不管是新变化、坏策划都导致事情向着mo对一些角色设计相反的方向发展，排除了mo的工作。早先我被告知我会得到一些帮助，然而实际上却是把一段动作分成了两段，只是因为中间有些对话。他们把对话与动作分成了两部分，由不同的人完成。
我和mo依然把它们看成一个整体，mo一遍遍地和我说这一幕该怎么结束，这是一个故事的重点，一点点讨论在我看来保证了故事合理的结束。
他们告诉我他们做死亡镜头的计划时，我根据我对这些动画师的了解，否定了他们的人员安排。倒不是因为能力的问题，而是有些人能更好的处理这些镜头，但是却遭到了反对。导演把我请去喝茶：“你知道的，我想他制作那一幕，因为我觉得他赢得了这个机会，所以。。。对不起喵”
喵？
我他喵一直都想骂人，而现在我简直想踹碎你的胸捏爆你的蛋（差不多就是原文），什么时候这种东西也可以赢得了？我们不应该尊重mo把事情做到最好，特别是在他走了以后？我在RWBY v3制作开始以前就知道RWBY有麻烦了，但是我现在还对一些事情蛋疼不已，为什么我到现在还不放弃希望，为什么我还倾其所有？
因为我不是为了自己，我是为了mo，我所做的一切是为了这个节目按照mo的计划走下去，所有的碎片本来都应该被利用起来然后这个节目就可以盛开，但是有些人总是觉得自己聪明而mo不够好想走自己的路。
浪费了这么多时间，如果你们不要那么自大自傲贪婪，争着做拯救RWBY的英雄，那么一切可以进行的更好。
你们能想象让sheena加入进来，哪怕只负责一小部分吗？不，他们不会这么做，她可以做很多事，我依然坚信这个节目需要她来维持mo的风格。
我觉得粉丝们应该知道这些，但是他们还是不知道，他们注意别的事去了，至少渲染更漂亮了对吗？至少这些文件在RT的硬盘上摆放的更整齐了对吗？
所有和mo亲近的人、与mo共事的人、所有希望这个节目顺利的人都被当成了垃圾，我觉得我还能留在RT是因为我尝试“合作”了，至少看起来这样。我很生气、我没有说话、我很受伤，但是我还是留了下来。